Psalm 142:1-7

At the time I was reading this passage I didn't know who it was for just knew that the Holy Spirit was tugging at my heart to read and share some of my experiences and thoughts. 
A prayer when overwhelmed and desperate. When we feel cornered by our enemies, only God can keep us safe. 
David is the author of this Psalm.

~Psalm 142:1-7~
I cry out to the Lord; I plead for the Lord's mercy. I pour out my complaints before him and tell him all about my troubles. When I am overwhelmed, you alone know the way I should turn. Wherever I go, my enemies have set traps for me. I look for someone to come and help me, but no one gives me a passing thought! No one will help me; no one cares a bit what happens to me. Then I pray to you, O Lord. I say, "You are my place of refuge. You are all I really want in life. Hear my cry for I am very Low. Rescue me from my persecutors, for they are too strong for me. Bring me out of prison so I can thank you. The godly will crowd around me, for you are good to me. " 


- When I read through this psalm it reminds me of times that I've had, that were very low. David and I have a lot in common when it comes to our emotions. We have caught ourselves in deep depression. As a child of God I know that depression is dangerous in many ways, one I believe your welcoming the wrong type of influence in your life and presence. One reason why we should immediately cry out to the Lord for his mercy and light to surround us! For the enemy sets traps and he is too strong for us alone. Although humbling yourself to the Lord and admitting without him you can not escape the prison your in. God knows where he needs to bring us, so that we completely give EVERYTHING to him. Our lives is in his control and knowing that we should find peace and understanding that God cares, he loves us and he can't stop thinking about us. The struggles we face weather it be mental, or physical just know God has a purpose and if it hasn't already been reviled by him. have faith that he will. Sometimes he's cleaning house for us. Stay in the light and his word, immerse yourself in his word, and you will find that you have peace and you'll start to crave that time with just the Lord! Amen!!

Sister...

Sister,
I wish I could understand you just a little better.
Have a relationship with you just a little deeper. Sister,
I wish I could live in your world for just a moment, so that I could be closer to you.
All we want is you to realize your potential...Sister, I wish you could see how bright you are.
How beautiful you are, without someone beside you.  Sister, I wish we could go back to sharing the same room again, I hold those days close to my heart. I enjoy the thoughts we shared, the ideas we had, the conversations about the bible...speaking about God together. What happened?? Who changed your mind?? Sister, where's the solid rock you once stood on?? Did you forget?? Sister, stop fighting, not listening...Sister, you remind me of someone, me. Take all the clutter out and you will find that you still believe the same as me. Sister, you'll find that we aren't so different that we long for the same things. These things we seek they are not of this world, remember??

Sister...

The Red Cabin

Last weekend of February my husband and his college buddy planned a fun couples weekend only, no kids. It was so good to be away from are little ones but we missed them so much. It started with me forgetting my snow boots, funny thing I thought that my hubby had grabbed them and he thought I had grabbed them. No they grabbed themselves and stayed home. :) I turned back home and by the time I arrived at mount Ashland it was about five in the afternoon, I was so dreading the hike up!! The mountain kicks my butt each time! Although the late night hike up with just my hubby did me some good, not just the exercise but being able to enjoy some quite time with just my husband was good, real good. I get to see aside of him that I don't get to often. It reminds me why I feel in love with the guy! He has just a perfect character that I enjoy so much. I love how real and down to earth he can be, how romantic and loving he can be. I enjoy his wisdom and I love how special and wonderful he can make me feel. I am sure that I do the same for him. It's so easy to forget about each other and being reminded to focus on each other is good to each other and your marriage. Anyhow, playing games in the warm cozy yet very rustic cabin was pretty amazing. I enjoyed getting to know are friends on a deeper level. I enjoyed playing in the snow and watching the boys build there snow caves! The scenery takes your breath away. Here are some of the pictures we took while out to the Red Cabin. 

Looking Back

I was looking back in my journal entrees and noticed one that hit home for me...at the time I wrote it I was struggling with myself. Funny how that might sound, seriously what christian doesn't encounter a fight or two with themselves. Anyhow here it goes...

~Repentance~

Last couple of weeks have been hard on me spiritual. The human stumbles and falls more than I generally like. But I am thankful to know that God will help you/me up when we/I slip...

Repentance- a turning away from sin, disobedience, or rebellion, and a turning back to God.

1 Kings 8:47; Job 42:6; Luke 17:3; 2nd Corinthians 7:10 (where I will be reading and looking at)

1 Kings 8:47
But in that land of exile, they might turn to you in repentance and pray "We have sinned, done evil, and acted wickedly" if they turn to you with their whole heart and soul in the land of their enemies and pray toward the land you gave to their ancestors-toward this city you have chosen, and toward this temple i have built to honor your name-then hear their prayers and their petition from heaven where you live, and uphold their cause. Forgive your people who have sinned against you. Forgive all the offenses they have committed against you. make their captors merciful to them, for they are your people-your special possession-whom you brought out of the iron-smelting furnace of Egypt.

-When we aren't in tune with God it almost feels where in exile. We are not listening but listening to our flesh are sinful nature. Even though we have done wrong and might do more wrong in the future God instead of turning away from us, forgives us and saves us from what has captured us.  Even though we know we are sinning and hate the sin that we are committing are mind finds ways to justify the sin...but are soul condemns us and reminds us to turn back to our savior, Jesus.

Luke 17:3
So watch yourselves! "If another believer sins, rebuke that person' then if there is repentance, forgive. even if that person wrongs you seven times a day and each time turns again and ask forgiveness, you must forgive."

-Now if we are called to be forgiving isn't are Father just as forgiving...I would say more. I would say even though I should be forgiving, I know that I fall short. Lord teach me how to be more like you!

2nd Corinthians 7:10
For the kind of sorrow God wants us to experience leads us away from sin and results in salvation. There's no regret for that kind of sorrow. But worldly sorrow, which lacks repentance, results in spiritual death.

Sorrow for our sins can result in changed behavior. many people are sorry for the effects of their sins or for being caught (sorrow which lacks repentance). Compare Peter's remorse and repentance with Juda's bitterness and act of suicide. Both denied Christ. One repented and was restored to faith and service; the other took his own life.
-I continued to read in my bible and found such a lovely explanation of repentance! I can't explain this better, all I can do is relate it to my own life. Instead of letting sin conquer my life, I think I will let the Lord conquer me. I feel I will have the better end of the deal by allowing his love and control over my life then taking matters into my own hands.

Waiting Patiently on The Lord!

Patient- Bearing pains or trails calmly or without complaint; steadfast despite opposition, difficulty, or adversity; not hasty or impetuous. Patiently-In a patient manner.


    Sometimes I have the hardest time waiting patiently on the Lord's perfect timing...my mind drifts and thinks of ways how to fix, make things better or faster to benefit me in some shape or form. How can I sell my car faster, how can I get my darling little Bella to eat her meals faster?? How can my little Lily learn to listen to her mommy faster??? So many questions and ideas I have to fix little problems in my daily life as a mother, just a little faster. I realize that I can't sell my car faster, I can't get Bella to eat more or faster, I really really can't get Lily to listen to her mommy faster. Because if I don't have patients on God's perfect timing in all of this, then my car will cause me to worry and my Bella will frustrate me, and my little Lily want learn the skills that she needs. I hear myself and think how selfish of me to think that I can make things happen according to my time. By my car you know you want too, Bella eat your food faster mommy needs to get somewhere, Lily you just need to listen cause I am the mommy!! I struggle like any person and mother to fix the situation at hand, right away, not consulting in God and how he would have done things. Stop! Wait patiently on God's ever so gentile and sweet guiding words. I know that once I hear his perfect solution comes a sweeter victory and I find I am praising God just the way he would have me...and this rings sweeter to him. Yes we are parsing the Lord, because all this isn't about how to accomplish it faster, better, wiser then God but to know you find knowledge and success in the Lord. The daily duties become easer, calmer and faster!! When we find that we are waiting patently on the Lord, we are also tested in this task. Are we going to follow what the Holy Spirit is guiding us to do or are we going to listen to the frantic person that wants to just fix things and get passed the situation and move on. 


Psalm 140: 23-24
Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. Point out anything in me that offends you, and lead me along the path of everlasting life. 


Will I obey my Father and wait on his perfect timing or will I take matters into my own hands and make my day just a little more hectic and that more unpleasant for me and others around me.  


Romans 12: 13
 Be patent in trouble, and keep praying. When God's people are in need, be ready to help them. Always be eager to practice hospitality. 
Psalm 40:1
I waited patiently for the Lord to help me, and he turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the pit of despair, out of the mud and the mire. 


Having faith and patients that the Lord will hear your cry's and prayers, that he will come and lift us up when were felling a little lost...he gives us ideas and solutions to our daily situations. 


Psalm 139:4-5
You know what I am going to say even before I say it, Lord. You go before me and follow me. You place your hand of blessing on my head. 


The Lord will bless our hands and our work...Bella will and has improved in her eating but I know that the Lord will give her a desire to eat and she want be the petite little pumpkin any more.  I know that my worries of our finance's is in the Lords hand's and he has already pre-pared the person that will buy my car or the next job is provided already for my husband. I know that if I am patient that my God will give me just the right tools to help my little Lily to listen to her mommy. It's all in God's hands because in mine it just want go right. I am eased and comforted knowing that God is in control and that he will provide.